We are officially six full weeks in since we Californians were ordered to shelter in place to flatten the curve to slow the spread of the Coronavirus.
We are living in some WILD times and this has been by far the most bizarre six weeks of my life.
Let’s not even get started with the myriad range of emotions running through the house on loop including: anxiety, fear, anger, resentment, happiness, and sadness.
6 Weeks of Mourning
I found those first six weeks to be a free for all in our house. Like everyone else we did our organizing, baking (and eating our feelings), crafting, tie dying, and taking a deep dive through old pictures.
We have been trying to figure the whole distance learning thing on to have to pivot again in a few weeks to an unknown summer. Will there be camp? If there is camp, do I feel comfortable sending the kiddos? And have I mentioned Fortnite? The video game that I swore I would NEVER let my children play.
Over the past 6 weeks, we have collectively been in mourning. Mourning the loss of what was. From the freedom to come and go as we please or the freedom to just be alone for 5 minutes! My life completely changed overnight and it has been a hard adjustment to say the least.
Turns out though, this is looking more like a marathon, not a sprint.
This isn’t some wonky hiccup in our life that we can tie up into a nice little bow and leave behind. As much as we would all like to live in denial, life, as we know it, has forever changed.
Things are going to look very different when we get out of this and we all have to pivot and move forward, however that may look for you.
I have decided to focus on the positive (my family is healthy, my boys have never been closer) and try to get back into somewhat of a routine. Moving my body is also a non-negotiable to keep sane. While the unknown is my biggest anxiety trigger, keeping a routine will give some certainty to my day.
There are really hard days ahead for me emotionally, I know that. I also know that I cannot control what will happen tomorrow. I can only take things one day, or sometimes one hour at a time!
For today, I am going to take a big deep breath, drink my coffee and do my thang, from a socially responsible distance, in my house, of course!
Hang in there gang! We may not all be in the same boat, but we are all in the same shit storm together.